Outside the Pigeon Holes

                                                     (image from: http://farm4.static.flickr.com) The other day I was driving home from work and having a very familiar battle with 'the voices' (the ones of doubt and fear that plague me and rarely let me rest in where I am). They were again nagging me, second guessing me, my life, my choices, etc. Then I got the feeling that I needed to just let the words flow rather than resist and battle each one (as I usually do). So I stopped fighting and just 'stood'. The flow of thoughts washed over me and I began to relax. A vision began to appear in my head. I was standing up, facing a huge dragon. The words were coming from his mouth in the form of the fire that he breathed. I stayed there facing him. I let the fears and ac...

Heavenly Dad and I did some serious wrestling last night. Something in me broke as I listened to Bentley hack and cough and as I thought about Denny and the surrounding circumstances. All the prayer energy I have put toward both...And then I thought of all the many stories of people who have stood on His promises for healing and deliverance who have never seen either in this lifetime. I just became overwhlemed with anger and frustration. In my spirit I yelled at Him and shook my fist and didn't care that it was the eve of the day we celebrate the birth of Christ. Because I felt more like Jesus during the time we now celebrate as Easter when he said "My God, Why have you forsaken me?!" Then I fell asleep. And when I woke up a bunch of stuff fell into place in my head. It was like a tangled knot was undone. I was energized and thankful for a God I can be real with. Who will listen to me cry and scream until I am exhausted and then sit beside me and whisper His love and heal...

I point you to Pastor Dave Workman's blog for a really good analysis of what the heck is going on in this world: DAVE'S BLOGSPOT