BIG DESTINY Scam?

I am coming to a place where I think that maybe God doesn't have one single thing that he wants for me to do...I mean, maybe he does for some. I believe he has plans for us, but I don't know if it's a spelled out destiny with some big job to do. I am coming to believe that maybe He created me with the purpose of letting me be me, making choices and flowing in the gifts He has placed in me. Yes, He wants to see me do wonderful things. And perhaps there's a 'right track' in some form or another that He leads me toward (whether that is a career path or a relationship, or a geographical location)...But the important thing is that I do everything from a place of love...And in that I can accomplish great things or small things, but when done from that place, from the heart of Christ, everything is worth doing.

I am starting to believe that maybe the idea that we have been sold in Christian books and teachings is that each of us has to have some BIG THING to do. And that our job is to seek and search and pray to find that one thing. If we can't seem to find it or accomplish what we think that is then we're left feeling like something is missing. I think that this leads to frustration because the beauty of the everyday is lost or not emphasized.

I am beginning to understand what Paul was talking about when he says he has had plenty and been in want, but learned to be content in all circumstances...Not that I am close to that at all in my own life, only that I am starting to wrap my mind around it after banging my head against the wall wondering what huge DESTINY I had.

I'm not sure I believe anymore in this elusive 'ultimate' destiny. The journey IS the destination. Papa might give me insights or reveal certain things about the journey to me, but in the end I think it's how I live the everyday that matters more than the place I end up (Earthly speaking of course).