Alive

So many things are changing in my life...So many things coming at me to navigate and steer through. Things that challenge and stretch me. Things that are forcing me to rely on the grace and direction of God; Things that I have no idea for certain if they are the right things or not...But I believe them to be when I'm not bogged down in anxiety. But I am finding myself in a really scary place where I am also able to say:

"I may be wrong, I may be right, I may be crazy (isnt that a Billy Joel song??), but I have grace. I am covered. I have a God who will never leave me or forsake me. NEVER. Neither death nor life can separate me from His love...Because of Jesus."

I will stumble and I will fall no matter how hard I try to stay on my feet, but I will always be safe. And as crazy as all of this is, as scary and as wild, I feel alive again....

...And maybe that tells me enough.

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Francy said…
Wow! A bunch of new posts! Helen, I'm going to print out the paragraph that starts "I may be right..." and tape it to my fridge and read it everyday! I so need to be reminded of God's grace. It's really the only way to live free and it is so comforting! Great post! Now I'm going to read the next two. (I scrolled down when I saw multiple posts because I have to read them in the order in which they were written!)
12:30 PM
Helen Ann said…
I'll be published on your fridge??? WOW! I am honored! Seriously! :) :)
11:39 PM
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