My Aunt Helen

That's my beautiful Aunt Helen there on the left in the purple shirt...Then me, then my gorgeous, fantastic and wonderful mom, then my awesome and lovely Aunt Ann. I was named after both of my aunts and I am proud to carry their names.









This is my Aunt Helen again, in her very trendy and becoming sun hat. Next to her is my cousin Iris and my other cousin, Greg.



Aunt Helen is full of life and humor and love. She loves Jesus, her family and her friends. I can only hope to be half as cool of an Aunt Helen as she is. My nieces will have to let me know someday how I am doing...

My Aunt Helen is very sick. They say that the cancer is in her lymph nodes and there isn't much they can do. They say she doesn't have a lot of time. I don't think I have ever quite felt the way I feel before. I have never known my life without Aunt Helen. Even though she lived in North Carolina and Florida and we lived here in Ohio, she was always there...You know? And now I have to face the reality that Aunt Helen will eventually go home to be with our Jesus. I know she will love it there. But it won't be quite right in the world down here ever again.

I have been reading alot about miracles. And I have become really stoked to start living out the commission Jesus gave us. I want to heal the sick and set the captives free in His name. I have seen it happen. And I want to see it more. My Aunt Helen is 75. I know that we still live in this halfway world between the resurrection and the second coming of the Lord. And that we all will still die sometime. And that our life spans are pretty set on average somewhere between 75 and 90. So I'm not sure what to pray for Aunt Helen. I just don't want her to go. And I don't want her to go like this.

So...I'll just let the Holy Spirit do the work right now until I know. And I will pray for the cancer to stop in its tracks and do no more harm to this wonderful woman of God...And that I do get to see her again before she makes her journey to the Father.

If anyone wants to join me in prayer I would love the company...I don't feel very powerful right now and I have seen so many people die of cancer despite thousands of prayers and commands and spritual warfare that my mustard seed of faith might be a little shakey in the face of this giant.

Thanks for listening....

Update: 8:34pm

I had prayer with a small group of powerful prayer folks this evening...It was a blessing to be with brothers and sisters who would stand with me for Aunt Helen. We prayed selfish prayers and asked that we get to keep her here with us for a while longer and also prayed again for the cancer to stop where it is and do no more harm. That Aunt Helen's body would be free from it. I'll never be able to answer why some people are healed and some people aren't. That's a God-sized question. But I do know that I can't stop praying for miracles just because they don't always happen. I remember that in Jesus' time, he could do very little healing in his home town because their faith was not only small, it was non-existent.

To let doubt and hopelessness reign is to let the enemy win.

Martina McBride has a song called "Anyway" that has this lyric:

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway.

Because sometimes things do turn out like I think they should.

Comments

Jenny said…
I'm on it. Cancer is illegal. We had a worship leader tell a great testimony yesterday. She got up and told us she had been diagnosed a few weeks ago with cancer and had 3-6 months to live. Two days ago she went to another doctor for a second opinion and she said," I don't know how to tell you, but there's no cancer. You've certainly had a miracle." It was a beautiful way to start worship. :)
11:48 PM
Joules Evans said…
I will join you in asking God to be Jehovah Rapha, the God who heals, to your Aunt Helen, and for you, to be extravagant in prayer for her, like the sower sowing seeds.

We know God loves your Aunt Helen, and that He CAN heal her. And we know that He loves you, and CAN heal your Aunt Helen. We will just pray diligently that this is one of those times that it is His will to heal her because that is to His greatest glory!
10:04 AM
Helen Ann said…
Thank you Jenny and Julie...They did the final reading of the tests and found it is also in her bones and liver...So it is one nasty, illegal! But I opened my Bible last night to John Chapter 14 - where Jesus says that we will do even more than he did...And an e-mail came in today from Francis Frangipane's ministry about not allowing a passive spirit to overtake us...And he also used an analogy to David vs a giant which I put in my ramblings on here...Coincidence?? Hm. Dunno...It was certainly an encouragement.
6:24 PM
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